Sunday, November 11, 2012

Shadows

Weekends - life seems to pass, one weekend at a time. And when 52 weekends are past, a new year arrives.

The joys associated with weekends seem to mellow out with every passing one. Earlier, weekends were the time when one would definitely go about the place - meeting buddies for lunch or treat, going places to see new things, shopping for a wardrobe or a new read, make plans for a birthday - there were plenty of things to do in the 2 days that come after 5 days of baking oneself on an executive seat staring into the depths of an LCD thin screen, weaving one's way through the tasks of the day. Rest was never the first thing on one's mind for the weekend.

But that aspect was set to change. The body, getting weary under the toils of the week, seems to lose a lot of its old self - including patience, resilience and a yearning to burn away the calories that would otherwise stack up on the body. The erosion of the strength is very similar to senility sinking in and makes one wonder if this is how getting old is.

Not to be left behind, the people in your life seem to have a bustling life they are thrilled about - of which you get to hear barely a whisper - people sleep with each other, get interested in someone else and leave someone behind to wallow, get married or have kids, lose a loved one or buy a new house. And the one place where you can see what is going on in someone's life is undoubtedly facebook - this place has ended up being the forum for one's thoughts and feelings ranging in variety from announcing a brand new purchase to a private thought with hidden messages intended for someone who may never glance at it.

Maturity is long forgotten and people tend to forget science and logical thinking. Casuistry and the ability to convince run the world today and there are 3 kinds of people - the people who conjure new logic and state it to the crowd. the people who base their logic on scientific foundations and anyone who would buy a logic that fits like a glove to their perspective on things and help them push their way down the depths of ignorance.

Truth is of no value today. Honesty goes out the window at this point. Everything runs on what people want to believe in or rather, on what the people with truth in their hands prefer to say. Nobody cares about taking a lot of truth to the grave to be silent on it forever. Nobody cares about whether or not they hurt someone's feelings by lying. Nobody would admit to doing wrong. Conscience is dead. Everyone does and says as they deem fit and do not care about the consequence of word nor deed. Nothing really matters. Everything is immaterial and makes very little sense. Everybody hears things, builds their beliefs on things and acts with things in their mind but the things are always baseless things with a strong sense of value attached to them.

The heart is merely an organ of the body and not a spring of emotion in poesy. People make room for nobody there anymore. Everyone is scared of breaking someone's heart but nobody cares about breaking trust. Trust is easily rebuilt - hurt, easily overcome, by choice. Though distrust mounts every time trust is broken and rebuild, the cracks on it don't seem to matter - better a bridge in repair to a known devil than a fine one to an unknown angel.

Friends are not people you can always rely on - they have their weaknesses - and for most, it is the person or thing the slightest sight of which causes a stirring in their groin. Nobody will stand by you. When you need someone the most. the most human touch you can get is from the pet you love. Humans are creatures that love to keep a distance from other humans with whom they tribed. And friends are also the people who stab you behind your back more often than you can blink your eye.

Money is something you will never see much of. Unless you bother to take some out of an ATM or a bank branch for handy expenses. People handle less money personally by the day, which is a good thing. A sore realization is that everyone on the planet is interested in your money. Nobody understands that what you earn and what you do with it is your business - these days, it simply is not. From the daily callers at the bank where you keep your savings account to the guys handing out flyers right in front of your office building, everyone is after your money.

Humor is very shallow. Nobody knows what it is today. Sarcasm is taken over what used to be humor. Satire is a will o' the wisp, cropping up here and there sometimes, but sarcasm is the rule of the day. Everyone is tired of it, but nobody will admit - unless they want to be made an example of.

Encouragement - is a diminutive expression these days.

Even with all the above said, I simply have to say - I am heavily blessed. I got a buddy like no other who lights me up with his selflessness and cares enough about me that I feel no discomfort or hurt when I know he is around. I know he is my friend and I know he is the bestest ever. He puts this grin on my face like I am a sunflower staring into sunshine, even when I am faced with affliction. And my, am I glad for it!